Friendships and Broken Hearts in Morocco

By  Elena

Traveling onwards all the time,
meant that friends were few and far between.

I remember standing in the square in Tagahzout Morocco.
My boyfriend had just left me.
No more exciting first kisses,
only an expensive lease on our newly chosen apartment,
a broken heart, and a terrifying feeling that
I may never see him ever again in person,
as he traveled onwards to Russia.

My heart broken, and relieved at the same time.
I feel like a failure in love. In life.

But I must go on.
I look at the people talking and connecting.
In this foreign land, I wonder why I am here?
I see men talking lively in the streets. Holding hands while walking.
Kissing each other on the cheeks as they say goodbye.

This culture has an understanding of brotherly love
in a way that my culture of origin doesn’t.

But as I look around, I am one of the only women
this culture also doesn’t view freedom for women
the way my culture of origin does.

But friendship, friendship I see everywhere.
In the casual conversations around me.
I watch two men in particular having a rousing conversation
they speak together, and their bodies show an open familiarity
A laughter and a joy at being together.

I sit in the square watching them for a while
and all the while the burning in my heart grows and grows

Where is my friendship?
Where is my home base?

About Your Host:


As a single parent for many years, Elena knows what it's like to live in daily overwhelm that seems it will never end. After suffering from severe post-partum depression for 5 years, and an abusive relationship that she couldn't seem to quit, Elena developed a case of seriously self destructive self talk about being a "horrible mother". She knew she needed to do something different, but couldn't seem to shake old patterns. She started to experiment with the few things that HAD been working to bring her more peace, and combined them into one power packed (and quick) experience, to help find that inner peace, and make progress towards her goal of ACTUALLY feeling like a good mom. Through these tracks she's been able to stop experiencing irrational anger towards child, is no longer experiencing mental health challenges, and has even attracted a wonderful man into her life who is a great father to her son and a dream come true. Now she works to help other mothers to manage and reduce their stress, build healthier relationships, stop sounding like their mothers, and live lives they once only dreamed of.

Elena H

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