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Chapter 1 – Choose to Be Vulnerable or Keep Dying Slowly

So this is going to a wildly vulnerable experience for both of us…

and I want you to feel that I am here with you every step of the way.  So I’ll make sure to show you where we’re going every step along the way.

I know that my highest dream for myself is a part of a much bigger collective dream, many more hundreds of thousands of women, men and families to fulfill their highest dreams for themselves as well, in fact it involves an entire generation saying to themselves “we are the generation that erased Rape from planet earth” whether that’s of women or children, or men and young boys, or the animals, plants, and planet, we have a lot we’ve tried to destroy. 

But I know you are one of those beings who believe in this world of love, or you would not be here reading this word.

I believe we all come here with a mission, a purpose, a reason that we came to this world.

I dare say that all of the people who will hold this book also hold a vision for a tribe of community, connection and living together with the land and plants and animals.  Living in the land together, in harmony and peace and joy and art and creativity, being soft on the footprint of mama gaia together.

Many of the people I’ve met along the way also believe it’s an endless cycle of karma that keeps us here, and perhaps it is the redeeming of karma that brings us back over and over again.  

Perhaps it’s Karma, and perhaps it’s chance, perhaps it will always be a mystery.  

I know I’ve faced the darkness, and come back to live another day.  I know that I’ve found a massive amount of support and strength from my “future story” of “this is why I am here, and this is why I keep going and working on myself.”

In the deepest and darkest of days, when I was contemplating suicide, homicide, (and if I could have managed it, apocalyptic world destruction, lol) it was the “future story” of myself sitting in circle with women, helping them feel safe enough to feel and heal.  In order to help them I had to see and feel myself as a woman who HAD done her own healing work, and could share her story loud and proud without feeling the overwhelming shame, guilt, and embarrassment that stopped me for so many years.

It was because of this “future story” of that woman who I would become, that I am here and alive today to offer this to you. 

So let’s get to know each other better…  

Do you want to go first or shall I?

I’m fine either way, you just let me know

Remember, I’m here for you, to walk with you on this journey.

You go first, click here.

You’d rather I to go first? 

Sure, just turn the page, and we’ll continue onwards together.

How do you actually find time for you?

Somedays the kids drive you crazy! It's the little things we do EVERY DAY that support you or leave you exhausted.  You get angry at them when they fight, complain, or ask for your attention CONSTANTLY.   It feels like it's never ending.  

You know you need to take time for yourself... but when?
How? Video yoga at home with kids around? Ya right!

I hear you. 

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Still here? Maybe you need some background on why I'm sharing this...

As a single parent for many years, I know what it's like to live in daily overwhelm that seems it will never end.

After suffering from severe post-partum depression for 7 years, and an abusive relationship that I couldn't seem to quit, I developed a case of seriously self destructive self talk about being a "horrible mother". I knew I needed to do something different, but couldn't seem to shake old patterns.

I took every personal development class that came my way for 3 years straight.  3 day weekend intensives 3x month. After a while started to experiment with the few things that HAD been working to bring me more peace, and combined them into one power packed (and quick) experience, to help find that inner peace, and make progress towards my goal of ACTUALLY feeling good.

I built the first brain training track after listening to a John Asaraf course.  Things started changing for me in a big way and with these tracks I've been able to stop experiencing irrational anger towards my first child (who I had medical birth bonding trauma).  I'm no longer experiencing mental health challenges, attracted a wonderful man into my life who is a great father to her son so much more I dreamed of.

Now I spend my days writing, baby tending and helping other mothers  manage and reduce their stress, build healthier relationships, stop sounding like their mothers, and live lives they once only dreamed of.

I put the best, worst and naughtiest of it into this epic 444 page memoir to help myself and you recover from the culturally normalized rape that is all to rampant in the world right now.

Choose Your Own Adventure to Heal Your Trauma

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Mr. D and the Joygasm Queen

If you've ever loved and lost, you know that in the aftermath of a broken heart, nothing seems worthwhile.  

This book is a vulnerable, raw exploration of the 21st Century shadow of "failed nuclear family" and takes you on a journey to heal your own heart, brain, and body from the pain of feeling alone in a world that doesn't seem to care. 

I offers "what actually worked" for me to heal from the inside out all while traveling the world as a single mom-preneur.