I’m So Sorry

If you are the survivor of rape, it doesn’t feel easy and I want to honour you right now sister.  

It is a hard wound to wear, and it can take years to build up the courage to open to intimacy or love.

What I want for you, is to know how to love yourself through that healing process, and move towards self love. 

But if you weren’t raped, and yet it feels like it when you make love, even though your husband has always been kind to you and is a “good man”.  

Maybe you feel ashamed or worried that your sex life has disappeared, or you feel like you are forcing yourself once a year to find the spark “because it’s his birthday”.  

Then what do you do?
Do you force yourself,
to keep love alive?

What damage does it do
to the soul that lives
inside you?

It is these millions of white lies that I seek to help us heal.  It is the thousand untruths, it is the unwillingness to ask, and the pain when he says no, and the willingness to ask again anyways.  

Because is is the young women of our time
who will shape the sexuality of our young boys.  
And we shape them.  

We have the power
to end rape completely
in our generation.

I believe that if we can shed light for young women of all ages, and let them feel the true connection to their own innocent and powerful sensuality, then they will have a sense of the FEELING that intimacy truly carries.  

When they know this as the truth of the interior of their soul, then there is no way they will tolerate the kind of behaviours and men who perpetrate these acts.  

This will heal the world.

Often we don't realize how many places this trauma is impacting us.  

Click onwards to dive into the solution. 

How do you actually find time for you?

Somedays the kids drive you crazy! It's the little things we do EVERY DAY that support you or leave you exhausted.  You get angry at them when they fight, complain, or ask for your attention CONSTANTLY.   It feels like it's never ending.  

You know you need to take time for yourself... but when?
How? Video yoga at home with kids around? Ya right!

I hear you. 

Mom Self Care needs to be simple, easy, repeatable and effective.  

That's why I've brought together all the best tools for transformation of psyche that I've encountered, combined with bio-hacking and ancient tantric breath.  Learning joygasmic secrets opens new ways to deal with ancestral trauma. becomes simple as you bio-hack your way  through the nervous system regulation trial that is life as mother.

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Still here? Maybe you need some background on why I'm sharing this...

As a single parent for many years, I know what it's like to live in daily overwhelm that seems it will never end.

After suffering from severe post-partum depression for 7 years, and an abusive relationship that I couldn't seem to quit, I developed a case of seriously self destructive self talk about being a "horrible mother". I knew I needed to do something different, but couldn't seem to shake old patterns.

I took every personal development class that came my way for 3 years straight.  3 day weekend intensives 3x month. After a while started to experiment with the few things that HAD been working to bring me more peace, and combined them into one power packed (and quick) experience, to help find that inner peace, and make progress towards my goal of ACTUALLY feeling good.

I built the first brain training track after listening to a John Asaraf course.  Things started changing for me in a big way and with these tracks I've been able to stop experiencing irrational anger towards my first child (who I had medical birth bonding trauma).  I'm no longer experiencing mental health challenges, attracted a wonderful man into my life who is a great father to her son so much more I dreamed of.

Now I spend my days writing, baby tending and helping other mothers  manage and reduce their stress, build healthier relationships, stop sounding like their mothers, and live lives they once only dreamed of.

I put the best, worst and naughtiest of it into this epic 444 page memoir to help myself and you recover from the culturally normalized rape that is all to rampant in the world right now.

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If you've ever loved and lost, you know that in the aftermath of a broken heart, nothing seems worthwhile.  

This book is a vulnerable, raw exploration of the 21st Century shadow of "failed nuclear family" and takes you on a journey to heal your own heart, brain, and body from the pain of feeling alone in a world that doesn't seem to care. 

I offers "what actually worked" for me to heal from the inside out all while traveling the world as a single mom-preneur.